Place to go..When...Don't Know

So, I was thinking to myself I wanna stay some place that would be efficient for me and then I'll be able to achieve my dreams.

I've just recently turned 19 and I am in my Finals for the Fall Term...Still need to get on with it but I'm not entirely sure what I should do.

I am getting undoubtedly irritated in a very non-verbal or physical kind of way because I am plainly not showing how I feel.

It has to deal with Web Development and I have to make a website of my own about ME.
Only in a professionally sort-of way.

I am on Chapter 14 of Harry Potter Year 4: And The Goblet Of Fire. It is freaking awesome.

So, In the future I plan on living in San Francisco with a friend.

The You Tube company is apparently located in San Bruno, California (I got that from wika, which I wouldn't rely on but....well....on;y source I quickly found)  and it's about 25 minutes away from San Fran the place  I want to leave at to meet YouTubers that I want to chat with and get to know and become friends with as well.

Los Angeles is 5 (plus) hours away from those other two locations, which I could go to to find other Art related careers...like being an extra for a tv show, movie, or commercial...or even being the real deal.

Showing my art abilities.

Creating stories and so on...

But I'd be living with a friend while attempting to find work, have a bank account, save money, get credit...make it good, get into an art school, have a video camera (a good one), make random videos, vlogs, make cool and awesomely hilarious friends that i can get along with.

But I should be getting to my work now...Au Revoir!!!

(Don't you hate it when..you forget how something is spelt like so you google it...I do.)

Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.