I really don't like it when...

I don't like it when I can't get on facebook, youtube, or any site that actually use.

I don't like it when they allow it to be available in certain places (social networking sites) when were apparently not suppose to be.

I don't like it when I don't have enough money to purchase my own laptop and my own wifi connection dingle hopper thing. (then I wouldn't have the above issue).

I don't like it when people tell me what to do, or little pop-up on the computer ordering me what to do.

I don't like it when anything or anyone takes a really long time to do something, I'm quite impatient.

I don't like it when I feel like I'm being yelled at, put on the spot, or feeling like my intelligence is being challenge or making me feel stupid.

I don't like it when I see really sexual things, even though I'm not a virgin, who wants to watch others do things to others...I'd rather actually be doing things, but I honestly don't like it because I have better things to do...Not really..But I will.

I don't like it when people make personal things public, it's very annoying.

I don't like it when I just can't think of anything else or remember some things, like now.

Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.