Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.

College

Listening and watching this, not to peculiar, video with the song Insane In The Membrane (Insane in the Brain).  I really enjoy this song, it kinda makes me giggle. :)

I know, I know its been a while (to those who happen to read my posts) since I've been on. I actually am completed with my trade in Job Corps and I am now in college. I am really grateful for what has been given to me, such a wonderful opportunity. I am joyous and ever so smiling in the side of my brain, swirling through the heavens in the clouds with white and black feathers and an imaginary halo around my head.

I've met quite a few people those who were close as to friends or a once sweet but now regretful lover, acquaintances, associates, and those others. I had my laughs with each one of them and melancholy smiles, but many are gone and some had stayed. I am glad that I've made new and had kept those people with me.

Unfortunately, I had made my regrets but I am better since then. I would rather not discuss those issues as of now but until next time I actually do come back online.

Later. <3
PS I appreciate all of those who read my posts.