Place to go..When...Don't Know

So, I was thinking to myself I wanna stay some place that would be efficient for me and then I'll be able to achieve my dreams.

I've just recently turned 19 and I am in my Finals for the Fall Term...Still need to get on with it but I'm not entirely sure what I should do.

I am getting undoubtedly irritated in a very non-verbal or physical kind of way because I am plainly not showing how I feel.

It has to deal with Web Development and I have to make a website of my own about ME.
Only in a professionally sort-of way.

I am on Chapter 14 of Harry Potter Year 4: And The Goblet Of Fire. It is freaking awesome.

So, In the future I plan on living in San Francisco with a friend.

The You Tube company is apparently located in San Bruno, California (I got that from wika, which I wouldn't rely on but....well....on;y source I quickly found)  and it's about 25 minutes away from San Fran the place  I want to leave at to meet YouTubers that I want to chat with and get to know and become friends with as well.

Los Angeles is 5 (plus) hours away from those other two locations, which I could go to to find other Art related careers...like being an extra for a tv show, movie, or commercial...or even being the real deal.

Showing my art abilities.

Creating stories and so on...

But I'd be living with a friend while attempting to find work, have a bank account, save money, get credit...make it good, get into an art school, have a video camera (a good one), make random videos, vlogs, make cool and awesomely hilarious friends that i can get along with.

But I should be getting to my work now...Au Revoir!!!

(Don't you hate it when..you forget how something is spelt like so you google it...I do.)

Any Ideas?

It seems I have to write about the most popular things of today's world to get people to look at my blogs. All my other blogs are mostly about myself and then some things I was interested in, particularly this year.

The things I think people are into is Smosh, The President, movies, tv shows, specific channels, and so on.

Maybe I'm suppose to make my blogs eye catching..Like an interesting title or something interesting in it.

I honestly want people to read my posts and comment, but I don't want it to be about things I'm not interested in blogging about.

Views about those popular topics would be for another site O'mine.

What I'd rather just talk about is just about anything...I don't know what exactly though. 

But it's whatever.

My mind is blank of ideas or maybe it's too full of them, and I'm throbbing to just get them out.

Smosh is awesome

I really enjoy watching them and going onto their website Smosh.com it's really cool.

They are quite the hilarious bunch.

They give inspiration, maybe I can do what they do.

Who knows what will happen though...

I want to live my dreams....

This isn't my favorite video...not trying to be cheesy but,...All their videos are my favorite.

Not Entirely, but all of them are that awesome to be all my favorites.

Three Days Grace New in 2012

So, I'm currently listening to Three Days Grace.

I can't believe some people would just leave others so cruelly, if I stayed with someone I'd never do such a thing...Because if I stayed with someone AND called them my lover that would be commitment.

On the other hand, if I stayed with a friend...I'm just living with the friend and thats it.

There's not much to it.

But wether it is a lover or friend I would not leave them alone to die...If I can't do anything I'm calling for help.

Either it's "Somebody call 911!"

Or

I'm dialing and I call 911...

Now, if no one's around I'll see what I can do..but...I can't make promises if I can't keep them.

Like they say: Don't make promises you can't keep.

Psychos on Facebook

So, I'm in my class right now...I know I shouldn't be doing this but I am...

So my brother put up a post and tagged me and some of his friends in it.
It was a cute picture: I was the night owl.

I made my cheesy comments...And then when I decide to check the next day, today, his friend made a comment towards me.

He used such foul language, he had nothing good to say to me, he threatened to kill me, to beat me, he said he hated me.

I blocked him.

He said he hated my boring voice. (I have a monotone voice, some say, though when I get excited my voice is not as much monotoned.)

He said the C-word and the W-word. (I prefer not to say those words for anyone who'd get greatly offended, and I'm sure those who'd read this would know what I'm talking about. I am not either of those things, and I very much respect myself..maybe not as much in previous months...Which was quite long ago. There is no relevance to what I rarely ever did then, which was practically nothing, and what I do now, which is nothing except homework and Internet.)

He said he wouldn't mind doing the time, and beating or even killing me. He even wanted me to remember it always.

He said he really hates me.

He said that nobody cares about me.

He even said I'm worthless.

(He's the one who hates me and clearly doesn't care about me. I have no idea why, I haven't did anything to him. so, I don't know what went up his sleeve.)

(People do care about me, I do have friends, and I do have a family.)

But what if he actually finds me...And I'm alone.

What if my phone has no minutes, or is dead, or even broken. What if I had no phone.

I couldn't call the police...

All I know I'm moving to a different state.

I'm not staying here forever.

I have a life I desire to create.

I don't get humans sometimes, I wonder why humans do things and how humans do things. Humans are so darn complicated.

Why does this PSYCHO want to hurt me? What did I ever do?

Nothing. (in my opinion) NOTHING.

He's just crazy and he needs help.

I've decided that I'm going to unfriend those who I friended with on facebook, that I really don't know.

If I haven't met them personally and they're not anyone I was close to or even somewhat close to them I'm going to unfriend them. No exceptions, though I did want to be actual friends with some of the people, but I'm not.
Of course if I have their number they won't be unfriended either.
Those who do anything ridiculous or say anything psycho again to me, are leaving my page, unfriended especially blocked.
I don't want to hear from them again, I don't want to see them.

Please pray for me and pray for those who are homicidally insane to heal, we don't need more vicious murderers in our world.

I'm NOT joking...Pray for them too, if thats the only thing we can do.

Thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.

I really don't like it when...

I don't like it when I can't get on facebook, youtube, or any site that actually use.

I don't like it when they allow it to be available in certain places (social networking sites) when were apparently not suppose to be.

I don't like it when I don't have enough money to purchase my own laptop and my own wifi connection dingle hopper thing. (then I wouldn't have the above issue).

I don't like it when people tell me what to do, or little pop-up on the computer ordering me what to do.

I don't like it when anything or anyone takes a really long time to do something, I'm quite impatient.

I don't like it when I feel like I'm being yelled at, put on the spot, or feeling like my intelligence is being challenge or making me feel stupid.

I don't like it when I see really sexual things, even though I'm not a virgin, who wants to watch others do things to others...I'd rather actually be doing things, but I honestly don't like it because I have better things to do...Not really..But I will.

I don't like it when people make personal things public, it's very annoying.

I don't like it when I just can't think of anything else or remember some things, like now.

Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.