Place to go..When...Don't Know

So, I was thinking to myself I wanna stay some place that would be efficient for me and then I'll be able to achieve my dreams.

I've just recently turned 19 and I am in my Finals for the Fall Term...Still need to get on with it but I'm not entirely sure what I should do.

I am getting undoubtedly irritated in a very non-verbal or physical kind of way because I am plainly not showing how I feel.

It has to deal with Web Development and I have to make a website of my own about ME.
Only in a professionally sort-of way.

I am on Chapter 14 of Harry Potter Year 4: And The Goblet Of Fire. It is freaking awesome.

So, In the future I plan on living in San Francisco with a friend.

The You Tube company is apparently located in San Bruno, California (I got that from wika, which I wouldn't rely on but....well....on;y source I quickly found)  and it's about 25 minutes away from San Fran the place  I want to leave at to meet YouTubers that I want to chat with and get to know and become friends with as well.

Los Angeles is 5 (plus) hours away from those other two locations, which I could go to to find other Art related careers...like being an extra for a tv show, movie, or commercial...or even being the real deal.

Showing my art abilities.

Creating stories and so on...

But I'd be living with a friend while attempting to find work, have a bank account, save money, get credit...make it good, get into an art school, have a video camera (a good one), make random videos, vlogs, make cool and awesomely hilarious friends that i can get along with.

But I should be getting to my work now...Au Revoir!!!

(Don't you hate it when..you forget how something is spelt like so you google it...I do.)

Smosh is awesome

I really enjoy watching them and going onto their website Smosh.com it's really cool.

They are quite the hilarious bunch.

They give inspiration, maybe I can do what they do.

Who knows what will happen though...

I want to live my dreams....

This isn't my favorite video...not trying to be cheesy but,...All their videos are my favorite.

Not Entirely, but all of them are that awesome to be all my favorites.

Three Days Grace New in 2012

So, I'm currently listening to Three Days Grace.

I can't believe some people would just leave others so cruelly, if I stayed with someone I'd never do such a thing...Because if I stayed with someone AND called them my lover that would be commitment.

On the other hand, if I stayed with a friend...I'm just living with the friend and thats it.

There's not much to it.

But wether it is a lover or friend I would not leave them alone to die...If I can't do anything I'm calling for help.

Either it's "Somebody call 911!"

Or

I'm dialing and I call 911...

Now, if no one's around I'll see what I can do..but...I can't make promises if I can't keep them.

Like they say: Don't make promises you can't keep.

Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.

Obama Won

Yay I was so happy.

But I didn't jump nor did I scream, though I wish I did.

Just where I'm at I want to keep the same character I am right now, not act unusual for the people I reside with.

but yeah.... Woot Woot!

I really am now thinking about moving to california, find my peeps live with them, get a job, find all these great youtubers and become their friends because I think they're awesome. Since everyone is only human and there are no higher ranks of other people, I think I'm gonna try to befriend an actor or actress that I favor.

While that I'd think I'd have my book almost done, not even, I just made my prologue recently.

And I'm soon gonna get myself an HD video camera and make my dreams come alive.

Dreams:
Become an actress
get into a movie
get into a show
get into a commercial

Become a Singer (band, solo, idk)

make my book
publish it

make videos on youtube

draw manga or/and awesome pictures

All of these for me to do in my lifetime is not impossible.
I believe in myself.

please believe in me.

though you don't know me.

Thanks for reading. :)

Japanese videos with a cool art

Its a Must watch. The art is utterly amazing and I would watch it over and over again, like the way it did. The japanese are wonderful.

Thanks for visiting!

Disney Comedy

I thought this was kinda funny. Brainwashing? Makes them sound like psychos with creepy alien powers. :D

LOL. Wow...this is just great.

This actually brightened my day yesterday.

But it really has no contribution with Disney, in my belief, but i like it.

Does not mean I would dislike The Disney corporation, because I honestly do LOVE The Disney Corporation. :j  thats a smiley face with a dimple.