Place to go..When...Don't Know

So, I was thinking to myself I wanna stay some place that would be efficient for me and then I'll be able to achieve my dreams.

I've just recently turned 19 and I am in my Finals for the Fall Term...Still need to get on with it but I'm not entirely sure what I should do.

I am getting undoubtedly irritated in a very non-verbal or physical kind of way because I am plainly not showing how I feel.

It has to deal with Web Development and I have to make a website of my own about ME.
Only in a professionally sort-of way.

I am on Chapter 14 of Harry Potter Year 4: And The Goblet Of Fire. It is freaking awesome.

So, In the future I plan on living in San Francisco with a friend.

The You Tube company is apparently located in San Bruno, California (I got that from wika, which I wouldn't rely on but....well....on;y source I quickly found)  and it's about 25 minutes away from San Fran the place  I want to leave at to meet YouTubers that I want to chat with and get to know and become friends with as well.

Los Angeles is 5 (plus) hours away from those other two locations, which I could go to to find other Art related careers...like being an extra for a tv show, movie, or commercial...or even being the real deal.

Showing my art abilities.

Creating stories and so on...

But I'd be living with a friend while attempting to find work, have a bank account, save money, get credit...make it good, get into an art school, have a video camera (a good one), make random videos, vlogs, make cool and awesomely hilarious friends that i can get along with.

But I should be getting to my work now...Au Revoir!!!

(Don't you hate it when..you forget how something is spelt like so you google it...I do.)

Any Ideas?

It seems I have to write about the most popular things of today's world to get people to look at my blogs. All my other blogs are mostly about myself and then some things I was interested in, particularly this year.

The things I think people are into is Smosh, The President, movies, tv shows, specific channels, and so on.

Maybe I'm suppose to make my blogs eye catching..Like an interesting title or something interesting in it.

I honestly want people to read my posts and comment, but I don't want it to be about things I'm not interested in blogging about.

Views about those popular topics would be for another site O'mine.

What I'd rather just talk about is just about anything...I don't know what exactly though. 

But it's whatever.

My mind is blank of ideas or maybe it's too full of them, and I'm throbbing to just get them out.

Smosh is awesome

I really enjoy watching them and going onto their website Smosh.com it's really cool.

They are quite the hilarious bunch.

They give inspiration, maybe I can do what they do.

Who knows what will happen though...

I want to live my dreams....

This isn't my favorite video...not trying to be cheesy but,...All their videos are my favorite.

Not Entirely, but all of them are that awesome to be all my favorites.

Three Days Grace New in 2012

So, I'm currently listening to Three Days Grace.

I can't believe some people would just leave others so cruelly, if I stayed with someone I'd never do such a thing...Because if I stayed with someone AND called them my lover that would be commitment.

On the other hand, if I stayed with a friend...I'm just living with the friend and thats it.

There's not much to it.

But wether it is a lover or friend I would not leave them alone to die...If I can't do anything I'm calling for help.

Either it's "Somebody call 911!"

Or

I'm dialing and I call 911...

Now, if no one's around I'll see what I can do..but...I can't make promises if I can't keep them.

Like they say: Don't make promises you can't keep.

Psychos on Facebook

So, I'm in my class right now...I know I shouldn't be doing this but I am...

So my brother put up a post and tagged me and some of his friends in it.
It was a cute picture: I was the night owl.

I made my cheesy comments...And then when I decide to check the next day, today, his friend made a comment towards me.

He used such foul language, he had nothing good to say to me, he threatened to kill me, to beat me, he said he hated me.

I blocked him.

He said he hated my boring voice. (I have a monotone voice, some say, though when I get excited my voice is not as much monotoned.)

He said the C-word and the W-word. (I prefer not to say those words for anyone who'd get greatly offended, and I'm sure those who'd read this would know what I'm talking about. I am not either of those things, and I very much respect myself..maybe not as much in previous months...Which was quite long ago. There is no relevance to what I rarely ever did then, which was practically nothing, and what I do now, which is nothing except homework and Internet.)

He said he wouldn't mind doing the time, and beating or even killing me. He even wanted me to remember it always.

He said he really hates me.

He said that nobody cares about me.

He even said I'm worthless.

(He's the one who hates me and clearly doesn't care about me. I have no idea why, I haven't did anything to him. so, I don't know what went up his sleeve.)

(People do care about me, I do have friends, and I do have a family.)

But what if he actually finds me...And I'm alone.

What if my phone has no minutes, or is dead, or even broken. What if I had no phone.

I couldn't call the police...

All I know I'm moving to a different state.

I'm not staying here forever.

I have a life I desire to create.

I don't get humans sometimes, I wonder why humans do things and how humans do things. Humans are so darn complicated.

Why does this PSYCHO want to hurt me? What did I ever do?

Nothing. (in my opinion) NOTHING.

He's just crazy and he needs help.

I've decided that I'm going to unfriend those who I friended with on facebook, that I really don't know.

If I haven't met them personally and they're not anyone I was close to or even somewhat close to them I'm going to unfriend them. No exceptions, though I did want to be actual friends with some of the people, but I'm not.
Of course if I have their number they won't be unfriended either.
Those who do anything ridiculous or say anything psycho again to me, are leaving my page, unfriended especially blocked.
I don't want to hear from them again, I don't want to see them.

Please pray for me and pray for those who are homicidally insane to heal, we don't need more vicious murderers in our world.

I'm NOT joking...Pray for them too, if thats the only thing we can do.

Thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.

I really don't like it when...

I don't like it when I can't get on facebook, youtube, or any site that actually use.

I don't like it when they allow it to be available in certain places (social networking sites) when were apparently not suppose to be.

I don't like it when I don't have enough money to purchase my own laptop and my own wifi connection dingle hopper thing. (then I wouldn't have the above issue).

I don't like it when people tell me what to do, or little pop-up on the computer ordering me what to do.

I don't like it when anything or anyone takes a really long time to do something, I'm quite impatient.

I don't like it when I feel like I'm being yelled at, put on the spot, or feeling like my intelligence is being challenge or making me feel stupid.

I don't like it when I see really sexual things, even though I'm not a virgin, who wants to watch others do things to others...I'd rather actually be doing things, but I honestly don't like it because I have better things to do...Not really..But I will.

I don't like it when people make personal things public, it's very annoying.

I don't like it when I just can't think of anything else or remember some things, like now.

Music helps

I am a dreamer, I am a joker, I am a...Well,...

I like Ozzy Osbourne-Dreamer
Steve Miller-The Joker

It's great music laid back and fun, I just wanna be relaxed and full of energy, optimistic and lazy, I just want to be indecisive, because that's just me.

So, I'm actually listening to it now,...

Things that make me think of the past, just make me shudder and sometimes I smile, because having memories can be a good thing. A reminder you hadn't yet forgotten even though some memories seem to be best forgotten but those you have to learn from. Learn from those regrets.

I really dislike to remember things at times, it makes me want to pull an imaginary gun to my mouth and then say "bloosh" or "kaplow". Cheesy sound affects I know.

But those memories, most of them, just make me shudder. I really don't like a lot of what I've done. If I could just do something different, maybe it would've been better. Maybe not.

Sometimes, listening to certain songs just make me temporarilly forget and I can feel peaceful and not feel the pain.

I would sing along and enjoy it.

But I think every moment was meant to happen for some reason, I honestly don't know this reason.

It's okay...Or it WILL be okay.

I don't want to cry but I feel like it's coming...maybe it's because I was watching this Japanese TV show , and it was truly depressing and it somehow reminded of me and I started tearing up but I did not ball out.
Which I'm glad that I didn't ball out, that would've been awkward, especially for my friend I was watching it with.

She's the one who had it on her laptop.

I need a hug from someone special and I seem to always need rest. I just drank some capuccino and I'm still effortlessly sleepy and my legs hurt from working out, which I barely do and it's kinda sad.

I'm not fat, but I do have some "Chum Chum" here and there. (Chum Chum is my new way of saying extra or unneeded body weight/fat).

So yeah,...

"SHut up, shut up,... won't bring me down..." Shut up by Simple Plan
I was just listening to that song, by the way.

Well, thanks for reading.
I appreciate it.

Obama Won

Yay I was so happy.

But I didn't jump nor did I scream, though I wish I did.

Just where I'm at I want to keep the same character I am right now, not act unusual for the people I reside with.

but yeah.... Woot Woot!

I really am now thinking about moving to california, find my peeps live with them, get a job, find all these great youtubers and become their friends because I think they're awesome. Since everyone is only human and there are no higher ranks of other people, I think I'm gonna try to befriend an actor or actress that I favor.

While that I'd think I'd have my book almost done, not even, I just made my prologue recently.

And I'm soon gonna get myself an HD video camera and make my dreams come alive.

Dreams:
Become an actress
get into a movie
get into a show
get into a commercial

Become a Singer (band, solo, idk)

make my book
publish it

make videos on youtube

draw manga or/and awesome pictures

All of these for me to do in my lifetime is not impossible.
I believe in myself.

please believe in me.

though you don't know me.

Thanks for reading. :)

Election day

Today is election day.

I know who I'm voting for...

Barak Obama.

I'm not democrat.

Nor am I republican.

I do not claim a party.

I don't agree with the killing of a fetus, an unborn child, for those who choose to have sexual intercourse and find out their pregnant, your being selfish...killing a child that was yours. You wanted to have sex, the point of sex is not arousal but reproduction of our kind.

For those who did not choose to have sex and got pregnant, then thinking of a baby whose face you'd see someone unwanted, the baby, yes honestly unwanted, but more of the man who was unwanted. The baby will have the face, and the sad thoughts for seeing a dear child's whose face belongs to that of a rapist.

Two different sides of abortion, I choose to be abstinent and not, if ever, have a child until I am 25 and ready as well as married with the man who would carry the sperm of my future children. Honestly is not any time soon because I am still young, 18, still growing, learning, and maturing in the heart, mind, and soul.

But here is what I've heard of Mitt Romney,...

He's a racist bastard

He's against homosexuals (LGBT) and wants to make it illegal

He wants to take away government funds like PBS,  PBS is what I watched as a young child.
(Dragon Tails, Reading Rainbow, Between The Lions, Sesame Street,  ect...)  

He wants to take away Pell Grants. (BTW I'm in college, I need those Pell Grants to buy my books so that I may learn.)

He's a rich person and just wants to keep all his money to himself.

(In My OPINION)

If he's elected, there would be another Great Depression, the part where everyone is poor, looking for a job, children having to work to feed their families, people scavenging around to help their loved ones.

The middle class will fall down.

The poor will stay poor.

The ones with very little hope will not see hope again.

He make us deep, deep, deeper into debt.

Our Economy will ravishly go down.

In a way, we may not see the light of day. (so to speak).

DO NOT VOTE FOR ROMNEY IF YOU CARE FOR YOU, YOUR FRIENDS, FAMILY, AND ANYONE THAT YOU CARE ABOUT...EVEN IF YOU DON'T CARE FOR YOURSELF, DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID.

But your choice is your choice, and you probably won't ever read this. Even IF you do, it'll be after the elections and then they would've already announced our new president.

The world will end if Romney is in office, don't let our world end.

_______

I know that was quite dramatic, but I actually feel this way.

I am not voting for Obama because he is black, but from what I've heard were actually starting to stand up and I want to continue to stand, I want to strive, I want to live, I want Obama to continue his work in office. We've been getting better, and this will take time, nothing is ever quick or easy. Life is not like an easy oven or a microwave, heat it up and ready to eat. We can't just press a botton and make it happen.

Anything that happens is done because we made it happen, we are the people and we have to live.
We have to continue picking up our feet.

Also think about hurricane sandy, who will it hit? you? your family/relatives? friends? what will you do in time of crisis? Who ever you vote for, just might change any possibilities.

We are who make the companies and business run, we are the ones who purchase, we make a business rise or fall down...Don't let Romney's lies fool you.

If this was at all convincing, I could've tried harder, but once again it is YOUR choice. NOT mine, I choose who I want to vote for. It is pretty clear, from all I've stated, Obama.

Vote Obama.

just a blog no promotes, no one recommends or anything, i wrote this blog all my own from my thoughts and all.

Good Day, and I appreciate you to whom ever reads my blogs.

Thanks.

Want to show MY talents

I want to show my talents, things I could possibly do for entertainment.

I can write, sing, draw, make music, anything really, if I put my mind to it.

I believe anyone can do anything if they TRULY try.

I can swim across the ocean.

Make a new and very useful equation.

Win a noble prize.

Best picture.

Best actress.

I can make the next Mona Lisa.

I can climb the tallest mountain.

I COULD do any of those things, if I truly wanted to.

The only way to make anything of yourself is to make use of yourself, don't just sit around and wait. What good will that do? Nothing comes to anyone for the ones who wait for it to come, than just doing it yourself.  We all did our part, what about you?

Like Einstein..

He was dyslexic, he read words slowly but he understood.

Johnny Depp...

Ran away as a young boy but soon became an actor.
(Kids...I don't recommend to runaway...like the new movie One out of 7)

Actors went to school, some did not but learned how to act.

People made actions before landing in the spot they chose today, where will you end up?

My plans...
Continue on writing this very interesting story...
Continue using GoAnimate for cartoon videos
Continue using Soundation to make mixtures of music
Continue drawing

Start role playing with my friends and continue
find places to be an extra for a movie, commercial, or show of some sort
learn to play the piano, guitar, and maybe even the violin (I think the first two would be better to try first)
get an HD video camera
get a video editing software

meet new people that are fun, entertaining, hilarious, random...in my opinion.

and then i'll upload all these things and somehow get people to watch them...

Maybe i'll get another account...instead the current one. One for people to actually get entertained with.

like SMOSH they're awesome and hilarious.

McDonald's Monopoly

I have almost every stub, I just need one for
Fiat
$50,000
$20, 000
$50
Resorts
Vacation
 but none for the Million

What are the chances?

My friend says that they try to make it difficult and the put these other specific stubs in different states just to make it impossible to win. You have to call someone you know who lives in another state to trade these things around so it may be possible (like actual Monopoly).

Blood of Eden

I am reading Blood Of Eden, so far the book is getting really interesting.

I'm kinda disappointed she lost the only people she had Rat (the bully), Stick (the fearful, skrawny, "good for nothin"one), and Lucas (her could've been future love).

I actually think that Stick was useful, he was smart and he knew things that the others just wouldnt listen, shows them. Stick told them that they'll die. They all did, even Allie.

Undead.

A vampire.

Creature she hates the most.

 They were eaten by Rabids, for a while I couldn't understand what these monstrous viscous creatures were...

worse than vampires...

They are vampires....

Rabids are Vampires.

The book reminds me of a manga, the fighting seen with the Blood Angels.

Allison Sekemoto rocks!

But the cover for the hard cover book does NOT show an asian girl, she looks white.

The blood rolling down her cheek from her eye...

Didn't that happen to that Rabid Deer?

blood down the eyes

just they didn't become white yet.

I'm on chapter 6.

I recommend this book.

Blood of Eden by Julie Kagawa  

Japanese videos with a cool art

Its a Must watch. The art is utterly amazing and I would watch it over and over again, like the way it did. The japanese are wonderful.

Thanks for visiting!

Disney Comedy

I thought this was kinda funny. Brainwashing? Makes them sound like psychos with creepy alien powers. :D

LOL. Wow...this is just great.

This actually brightened my day yesterday.

But it really has no contribution with Disney, in my belief, but i like it.

Does not mean I would dislike The Disney corporation, because I honestly do LOVE The Disney Corporation. :j  thats a smiley face with a dimple. 

College

Listening and watching this, not to peculiar, video with the song Insane In The Membrane (Insane in the Brain).  I really enjoy this song, it kinda makes me giggle. :)

I know, I know its been a while (to those who happen to read my posts) since I've been on. I actually am completed with my trade in Job Corps and I am now in college. I am really grateful for what has been given to me, such a wonderful opportunity. I am joyous and ever so smiling in the side of my brain, swirling through the heavens in the clouds with white and black feathers and an imaginary halo around my head.

I've met quite a few people those who were close as to friends or a once sweet but now regretful lover, acquaintances, associates, and those others. I had my laughs with each one of them and melancholy smiles, but many are gone and some had stayed. I am glad that I've made new and had kept those people with me.

Unfortunately, I had made my regrets but I am better since then. I would rather not discuss those issues as of now but until next time I actually do come back online.

Later. <3
PS I appreciate all of those who read my posts.